I’ve been on holidays for a month now. I’m still having battles with my chronic fatigue and anxiety, but overall I’m feeling much better. I know so much more about who I am, and who I want to be. I’ve felt the love and seen the support of so many wonderful people in my life. I’ve grown a lot, I want people, but I don’t feel as though I need them like I used to. That thought feels freeing. I’m enjoying life at the moment. I’m enjoying spending time with the people in it. I’m feeling more motivated than ever about returning to uni next year. I’m in new chapter of my life and I like it here.
Today was fun. I caught up with Maddie, Caitlin and Nat for lunch. We ate on Brunswick St and got ice-cream afterwards :) Tonight Pat, Steph, Josh, Elliot, Darcy, Lisa, and I went to trivia and didn’t do too badly.
My psychologist gave me a thought diary to fill out when I experience a negative emotion. It’s provided some interesting insight into the frequency of my anxiety, what makes me anxious, and particularly the thoughts that accompany my feelings. I don’t want my anxiety to manifest to the state where it stops me from doing things, like initiating social things, but I hate sitting with these feelings. They literally make me want to run away.